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Shuning
01 April 2012 @ 08:14 pm
I will not forget the day in 2011, at classroom A6.10, I said "ok!" to being food rep for Funorama. Thinking back, sometimes I wonder if I have made the right decision. In fact, throughout the entire preparation process, I kept contemplating whether I should just give up. I kept asking myself why was I so stupid to take up this task. Now that it's over, I'm glad I didn't give up and I'm glad I made the decision, THOUGH there were heavy prices to be paid (leave that to later).



Being a food rep may sound like a simple task, for example, like a technical rep. (Not saying being a tech rep is easy, I know how hard it is.) What I'm saying is that food rep isn't just coming up with items to sell, buying food and setting up the stalls. There are much much more to do. Even coming up with food items to sell isn't all that easy. Esp when your class is split up into so many groups and each wants things to be done in their ways. In the end, when the 'discussion' is over, everyone just leaves, leaving me more confused than ever about what is finalised and what's not. Furthermore, it seems like no one cares. They just assume everything is settled and when asked for help, they just 'yeah yeah yeah' but in the end, no help is given. I learnt to seek help, learnt to 'beg' people for favours and learnt who really do what they say. And sometimes, you just gotta do everything on your own.


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Shuning
27 March 2012 @ 10:08 am
In the library tapping into ACJC hotspot hahaha it's great to use wifi and not having to end money on data plan. Then again, not everywhere has wifi access. I just finished my econs case study, thus taking a break.

Woke up at 4am and received a text from Clara saying,"Hi can i have the honour of booking your 2nd April after school? :) You end school at 3.10 right....???" :D:D:D

I'm so eggcited! I just received an invitation - my close friend remembered and wants to celebrate my birthday! :D I swear I smiled on my bed and went on having my breakfast in a very cheery mood. Somehow I just feel so happy when I receive text from her, let alone asking me for time :):):)

Anyway, I shall do a post on Funorama soon, now that photos are up on facebook. Got a feeling I'm going to post very often with this convenient wifi and blackberry :')
 
 
Current Mood: excitedexcited
Current Music: Call It What You Want - Foster The People
 
 
Shuning
26 March 2012 @ 12:58 pm
'Sup! Tapping into the hotspot of Fusionopolis, relaxing at The Soup Spoon after one big bowl of roasted pumpkin soup with nice music like Michael Buble's at the background. This is life.

So Funorama XXI is over and this is my way of celerating my survival! Though it was a damn tough journey with loads of obstacles, with the help from God, my supportive family and sensitive friends beside me, I emerged and I'm glad I held on despite many thoughts of giving up.

The past week has been hell, I broke down again and again, so close to letting go of everything. I almost thought I won't be able to make it through, everyday felt like a total misery. I haven't felt like that for a really long time and even staring into that distant person in the mirror frightened me. I couldn't sleep well, eat well nor do anything well. It was one week full of emotions - from anger to despair, from excitement to disappointment.

All I can say is thank God. Thank God for the life experience, thank God for angels, thank God for family, thank God for friends and thank God for unexpected surprises. :)

I'm actually reeeeeally eggcited 'bout the "big" thing just next week - my 18th birthday! Shall talk about this in another post :D it's so convenient to post now thanks to my 'whiteberry'!!!

Goodbye, gonna do a few more questions before heading to cine to meet Mom. Yay Orchard finally :D
 
 
Shuning
18 February 2012 @ 10:57 pm
I AM ALIVE HIHIHIHIHIHI!

Just to say, I'M STILL HERE, ALIVE AND KICKIN'!

Hahaha I've been sick the past few days, still sick, but I'm not dead yet :) Haven't been posting about my life recently, just updates about old happenings/stuffs (how contradicting huh!)

Since last Friday, 10th Feburary, I was already got heaty no idea why, then it got worse on Monday due to one full day of hot-dog cooking/serving/steaming/eating you get the point. I was physically drained and almost mentally drained as well but dragged myself to school Tuesday cause afterall, it was V'day :)) It's my first V'day not baking/giving anything at all! I felt rather guilty but it was a new experience when people gave you stuffs because they wanted to, not because you gave them so they have to give you something back. Get what I mean? :) Oh well, I'm gonna bake one day and give out - when I'm fully recovered and have time (which the latter seems almost impossible)

In any case, I am counting down to terms, because right after that is the March break! So see ya :')
 
 
Shuning
13 February 2012 @ 09:41 pm
As many of you would have seen on facebook by now, my family went for a photoshoot! It took place on 19th January, Thursday. (Whuttttt, time - y u pass so fast?!) So anyway, after school, rushed home and bathed and took everything we needed and drove all the way to ABC Photography, all the way at Bishan. I slept all the way till there and did my make-up in the car hahaha. Thank God it wasn't thatttt bad. :)

At our appointment time, we went up to the studio and started our photoshoot! I was reaaaally excited 'bout it and the photographer laughed when I just woah-ed at everything. We first had our formal shots with Daddy and Mom in front, me sis at the back. The photos I'm posting will be my preferred ones, so if you wanna see all, check out my facebook!

OH and my facebook album is named "Growing Up", after the channel 5 local drama. You know? I hope we don't have any generation gap but oh boy I do feel old, that drama first debuted in 1996 according to wiki! Sis gave me the idea to name the album that because of rather obvious reasons :>


 Anyway, back to the photoshoot. After the formal shots with parents sitting down, we moved on to standing-up poses.






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Shuning
11 February 2012 @ 10:58 am
Despite the heavy rain, drenched shoes and dampened moods, Mom and I went ahead with our trip to Chinatown :)

The atmosphere there was good, with all the decorations and music. AND I visited the "Mint Musuem" as well as "Tintin Museum"!! :D Wish came true hahaha. We bought lil' snacks here and there too! Anyway, she was hungry and we hunted for a decent place to eat.




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Shuning
03 February 2012 @ 08:55 pm
pictures from harp comm meeting cum lunch :)

can't believe we started camwhoring in Häagen-Dazs! Oh well, it was much fun!




I love this photo IDK why :)












I'm looking forward to another harp comm date, we decided that we must try out all the ice-cream parlours at Holland V. Sounds great (but fattening)
 
 
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Shuning
30 January 2012 @ 09:02 pm
Hellooooooo! I've so many things I want to post about, but no time and don't know where to start. Anyway, today marks a year I've been in ACJC :) I can still remember the morning when I received my posting via sms! Anyway, I posted about it so you can find it in my past entries :)

A favourite junior of mine didn't get into AC, and I was pretty upset. Idk why either, probably cause I always wanted another spiritual friend who understands my environment. Oh well, think I'm pretty weird. I'm just glad to know many of my lovely juniors got into the JCs or poly courses they want. Come to think of that, AC was my fourth choice but I'm glad I got in, because the experiences and lessons learnt are priceless.

Today's chapel was really inspiring and encouraging. I was being very emotional and even teard while singing the last song. I guess God always has his ways of bringing us back to Him arms and comforting us. The song is "Blessings" by Laura Story. If you have me as a friend on Facebook, you can look at the youtube video I've posted! The lyrics pierced right through my heart and boy, was I touched by God's grace. It is still hard and almost impossible to comprehend God's actions and plans, but I guess that is one reason why I'm still undergoing trials or pains, to train up my Faith and Hope in God.

Today's Monday blues only lasted till CP. Thank God! Swimming was awesome, I really love it now that swimming is as the last period so we don't really have to rush off after lessons nor bathe in five minutes :) anyway, I improved my swimming techniques! Yay! Just the last lesson, I was struggling like crazy and rather disheartened even. Not that I'm much better now, but slight improvement is the way to go :)

I have been eating much more lately, having little hested arguments within me, mixed voices inside me, feel really terrible.

Anyway, I'm now looking through recipe books to get ideas for what to cook for family dinner! My dream come true :') if you've been reading my blog, you will know that I have always wanted to cook for my family and never got the chance to. But this coming Thursday, I'm gonna cook yayyyyy! Cauer it is the only day I get to end at 3.10pm, how awesome right. I have invited my family to a special dinner cooked by yours truly. Hopefully I can fork out enough time to finalize my dishes, buy the needed ingredients and cook up a decent meal for my lovely deserved ones.

Till then ;)
 
 
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Shuning
18 January 2012 @ 10:03 am
Paradise by Coldplay is a really nice song. I've been hooked on to it since AC Open House because MRC was blasting it out loud and my booth was nearby. Somehow the lyrics and the tune of the song makes me feel very peaceful and comforted. Uh not very good actually, considering how christian songs are supposed to be the ones making you feel comforted.

ANYWAY, it's been awhile. Sorry for going MIA for the past two weeks, it's been eventful and emotional. So let's rewind and go back to the first week of 2012!

First week was really good, I was seriously enjoying my life, having fun and feeling good. One huge contributing factor was that I exercised every single day. Don't you feel refreshed after exercising and sweating like nobody's business? :') I felt that my confidence went up throughout the week (although it's currently back to where it was initially hah) and I spent a lot of time with my family yay!

So on Monday, I went to AMICI for family 2012 lunch. It was quite a disappointment to my family although I totally loved the food. The atmosphere was really bad though, because right next to us, were a group of really loud people who acted as if it was a coffee shop. Sigh. We were AMICI members so Mom and I's meals were free yay!

Afterwards, Mom Dad and I played table tennis to burn off the calories of what we ate. Then, around five, we made our way to Hanyang laoshi's new home, just two streets away from AC! The view from their house was really nice (though scary) and I could see AC from their living room window. The whole atmosphere of the house was really homely and I absolutely loved the whole concept of their interior design! After everyone arrived, dinner started :) I played with kids, read books with them and fed them. Maybe kids aren't that hard to take care of after all :b

Continued table tennis with Daddy for around two more hours? Felt so fit (y)

The next day, (zomg mind blank totally) I basically spent the day with my aunts, went to buy gift for my senior with my Mom and played table tennis AGAIN :) At night, returned the harp back to my senior, Lynn. It was really nice of her to lend me her harp for a really long period of time. Felt very sad when I returned the harp but hey! I'm actively saving up for my own one. Anyone wants to contribute? ;)

On Wedesday, I had harp comm meeting! We had macs for breakfast in school and I really enjoyed myself with them :) Felt quite weird stepping into school after one month plus, but then again, I love AC. We managed to carry on our meeting productively and efficiently, so we ended quite early. Went to Holland V for lunch and some icecream (y) We ate at !!!! Zomg I totally love the atmosphere there. As you can see from the photos, the design is really nice and the sofa's super comfy! (y) I should save up and bring my mom there :)

Then, went to JP to meet my mom and aunts, shopped around and left for 1yiyi's home. Gymed for half an hour before going for my first ever tennis session! WOAH. It was super duper buper tiring! I totally admire Wing for being able to play so well and in the school team! How pro :D So anyway, aunt and I played full court and me being a totally novice, spent half the time running after the balls and picking them up. I was half dead after less than two hours! Aunt was saying how the youngest 'died' the fastest. Oh well! I had fun and if there's a chance, I want to play again!

Oh Thursday, I went to Toa Payoh! I haven't been there for the longest time and have no recollection of that place although Mom keeps saying I've been there. Oh well :) Did some work in the morning then trained all the way to Toa Payoh with mom. Thank God for circle line, transportation is really fast now! #IloveSG We shopped around (nothing much, really) and settled down at one of the food courts for lunch. They have a lot of food courts! Of which, many stalls sell very famous food. But I doubt I will want to travel all the way from Jurong there just to eat good food. Mom cooks good food :b

After lunch, aunt sent Mom and sis to SGH while I continued my journey to CSC (Civil Servant Club or something) yay! I like that place a lot, got swimming pool, gym, badminton court, rockclimbing, etc all the sports stuff! Played badminton with my aunts for near two hours shiok :') I think my badminton not bad leh, was really in the mood to play again, perhaps one day I'll book the court at Pandan CC to play! Watched people bowl and finally made my way home with a subway sandwich for dinner. THIS IS LIFE (Y)

Friday was harp practice day! Practiced our Open House pieces till noon and repainted our banner :) Went to church after that and started on the harp bookmarks (Open House souvenirs). It was a laborious task and I was so glad to get out of it after an hour to play table tennis with Mom hehe. Played all the way till AF people came and went for dinner with Dad. I continued with my task of cutting 180+ harp bookmarks and finally finished phew. Played table tennis for awhile more with Daddy before going home :)

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First week of school? It was really emotional for me, but thank God for sending angels to comfort me and keep my company. I managed to survive the first week of school, though exhausting and heartbreaking, I did it.

I guess as the pages of 366 unfold, I will slowly crawl, slowly climb and slowly grow. A painful and tough process, but it's a must.

Thank God my timetable isn't all that bad. I get to end school by 3.30pm most of the days, though I have commitments like harp and church, enough to make me a busy bee. I hope being a busy bee keeps me away from being a worry bee.

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Current Music: Paradise - Coldplay
 
 
Shuning
17 January 2012 @ 09:34 am
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I'm beginning to worry - my heart will suddenly beat very fast for no reason, I keep wanting to go toilet, I can't smile, my head aches throughout the day, trying to smile only makes it worse, I will have the urge to cry randomly and it seems as if I have a huge limestone weighing down my heart.

Doing things that usually make me happy, will only leave me even more empty afterwards. I have no appetite for main courses anymore, but I keep having the urge to snack on cereal and biscuit with no self-control. I'm no longer as productive and efficient as before, I can't say the words "I love you" face-to-face to my family and I feel like sleeping when I do my work in the morning.

I keep worrying. My mind or heart seems to split into two. One part of me wants to change, wants to improve, wants to increase my confidence, wants to smile; but the other part just keeps pulling me down, deeper and deeper into the grounds, just not smiling, just keep thinking and just keep frowning. When something finally seems better, another comes my way and I'll worry again.

As I'm typing this whole chunk trying to let them out so that I feel better, my heart is beating so fast again and my eyes are threatening to spill out tears. Why did I end up like this, really.

Somehow, there's a huge part of me that just wants to disappear; or wear baggy clothes everywhere even to church, have messy hair, be a total loner, not have a single care for the world and what others think of me, gym when I want, hide in fal forever, or simply not go to school and self-study at home. Sounds good right? If only life's like this.

Although I feel like doing what I mentioned in the above paragraph, I know I can't. This isn't what Shuning's supposed to be. I don't want myself to end up like this although current situations make me feel like that would make life more bearable. However, I don't want to see myself as such. I wanted to be a confident, outgoing, friendly, joyful, optimistic, cheerful, God-loving, people-loving, strong, hardworking and nice person. Perhaps this is only a dream that's never going to come true for me? Should I try? Practically, I should. Psychologically, I can't.

I feel like a total failure most of the time, like I'm not a good testimony for the Lord, I mean, what kind of Christian has so little confidence and faith in God? What kind of christian am I if I keep worrying? I'm not a good daughter too, frowning at home, picking at the food, making my parents worried, annoying them whenever I feel like texting, having bad moodswings etc. I suck as a student too. I'm away from my class, leaving right after each period, I want to hang out with them so badly, but I feel like they all dislike me and I'm afraid.

Oh great, I have totally contradicting and incoherent thoughts. I really just want to cry. But crying just makes you weaker. Why do I keep crying? Where do all the tears come from? Why is it neverending? Can I please have the permission to cry? What's wrong with me?

Probably everything.

 
 
Shuning
03 January 2012 @ 10:17 am
Hahaha this was due way long ago - Mom's birthday :)) We had a mini-treasure-hunt for her at home to hunt for her present and then high tea for birthday meal! 

Talking about high tea, I'm in love with it ever since. I've been trying to find less expensive high tea place so that I fulfill my dream of having high tea with Clara Chong ;)



My family came to fetch me from Starbucks@Coronation Plaza (as I had PW meeting there) and we went to the beautiful Goodwood Park Hotel! It's always been my dream to step inside it because everytime we drive past it, I think it's so beautiful! Finally, I got to go inside and even dine in there :)  The high tea place was L'Espresso and the atmosphere was quite lovely! We chose a corner seat (just beside the place which sells apparently the best durian puffs) and started our high tea session!


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I'm trying to post about everything that happened during holidays or near holidays, so that by the time school starts, I'm back on track and can post about the more current stuffs :D

Returning the harp back to Lynn tonight after prayer meeting, very 依依不舍! 

 
 
 
 
Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
Current Music: Amarantine - Enya
 
 
Shuning
02 January 2012 @ 11:04 am
Woke up in the morning to do some workout, watched Nat Geo Adventure with Daddy, had breakfast and currently posting while watching CI with mom :)

AMICI for lunch with family later to celebrate a new year! I really can't wait, been a member since a long time ago but haven't got the time/chance to dine in there. Hope we won't be disappointed!




Anyway, gonna post some random photos here and there, so,


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Current Mood: nervousnervous
 
 
Shuning
31 December 2011 @ 11:59 pm
http://formspring.me/upandswish

updates below :)
 
 
Shuning
31 December 2011 @ 01:22 pm

“Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher. “Everything is meaningless!”

Quoted from the bible, written by the wisest, richest man on Earth - Solomon. It's not a fully negative book, but has real meaningful encouragements to youths. I really learnt a lot from this camp and honestly, I felt that it was much better than last year's (read here). :)



My favourite picture! :D Should I change my facebook profile picture to that? I mean, my facebook proflie picture has been up for a year and I feel sad now that I'm so much fatter than what I used to be. Can no longer use that to cheat myself and others hahahaha.

Should I should I? Please leave a comment on formspring or livejournal if I should put this as my facebook profile picture :))

Anyway, moving on to the camp,


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Today's 31st December 2011! Can you believe it! Zomg, how fast time flies. As I read my post on 31st December 2010, I could see how I've changed over this year. Good or bad, both. I guess one can only look forward.

JF Leadership Camp just ended, what a memorable 2D1N! Going to church in 1 hour's time for mersing meeting and watch night. It's a pity my family can't go for countdown 2012 tonight because there's church service tmrw morninggggggg :(

See ya folks, HAPPY 2012 YAY YAY YAY!

 
 
Current Mood: relievedrelieved
 
 
Shuning
29 December 2011 @ 08:40 pm

HI it's been awhile! So sorry, if you have read my post on 2nd December you would have known that I've a super packed holiday schedule, which explains my lack of updates! As promised, this post is about my sister's birthday surprise on 27th November :)




It was a Sunday, thus after choir, I immediately rushed out with Daddy and went home to take the tiramisu (that I've baked) and other stuffs before heading to Grand Mercure Roxy Hotel for the grand project. Daddy and I were so worried that my sister would spot us at the carpark, so we coordinated with my aunt and mom to park at different areas. Oh anyway, my sister was clueless of where I was, she just knew that "Shuning has a friend's birthday party to attend to" and was apparently very sad cause I went to accompany my friend instead of her. We finally checked into the room and preparations began.


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Current Mood: awake
Current Music: harp music cd from Huishan laoshi
 
 
Shuning
11 December 2011 @ 08:06 am
Please be kind and do me a favour by participating in this small poll, whether I should leave my posts under cut or not. Especially for photos, because when I have a long post of photos, I'm not sure if I should cut them and let you guys click or should I just post it and let you guys see straightaway without having to click under cut.


Poll #1799973 LJ cut or not!
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'Cause some people might not know that they have/can click under cut to read more. Get what I mean? So just click and 'vote' once please! Thanks :')

     
 
 
Shuning
03 December 2011 @ 09:07 am
Sis' birthday was on 27th Nov, but due to our surprise for her, we had another celebration with 2yiyi at Pamplemousse @ Dempsey Hill.

My sister chose it after scanning through many restaurants and I was looking forward to it :) It was such a beautiful restaurant, with a lovely classy ambience and warm friendly service.




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Next up, sis' birthday party (27th Nov). Till then, tata :')   

 
  
 
 
Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
 
 
Shuning
02 December 2011 @ 08:50 am
I'm still preparing my posts on Mom's birthday (26th Oct hehehe) and Sis' birthday (27th Nov)! So here's a short update on my holiday so far!

Holidays for me started after harp camp, on 23rd Nov! There's a huge sense of relief when you know that school term is over for now and you have about a month to rest or should I say, prepare for 2012 :)

I think this holiday will be spent rather meaningfully because I am fully packed schedule for December. I've been rushing work for the past few days - homework, harp stuffs, church stuffs. For next week, I'll be having a short getaway to Malaysia with my family, to places I've never been before (Fraser's Hill, Penang). Following which, I'll be having my Junior Fellowship camp (@ Salvation Army), helping out as games planner as well as P3 teacher. Then, it will be youth missionary trip to Mersing and Christmas Eve cum Christmas service. Right after, will be Youth Fellowship camp (@ City Beach Resort) and finally, Junior Fellowship leadership Camp (@ Chalet), helping out as organiser. In the twinkling of an eye, holidays are over and I'm back to my familiar grounds of ACJC.



From the top left-hand corner:

1. Met up with darling Huiqi at her familar grounds of Causeway Point. We ate at Gelare Cafe, talked for two hours straight about everything and anything. We then walked around the shopping centre and talked even more before parting in the evening. It was such a pleasure meeting her after a year, I'm so glad to have a friend that's younger than me, yet willing to listen to my troubles/dreams/wishes/aspirations/hopes/feelings etc. Maybe its' cause I act/think younger than 17 *horrors* Hahaha, can't wait to meet up with her again, hopefully in the near future to celebrate our birthdays and her good Os results I'm sure she'll get :)

2. Studied at IKEA after Physiotherapy last Thursday. I really love being at IKEA cafe, where you just sit down there, chillax, read some books, do a lil' work, eat yummy food and enjoy life :) However, I wasn't prepared for the coldness and was shivering like crazy that I texted people to bring me winter jacket!3

3, Went IKEA by myself to study one whole day. It was such a productive day that I was extremely pleased with myself. Being totally prepared, I wore my jacket and brought a tumblr of hot drink that kept me going through the day. I completed my GP vocabulary book, finished the games for JF camp and did one skit for mersing trip :) I wanted to go there to study again because I really love studying there and just being at IKEA lifts the two sides of my lips up. However, I stayed at home yesterday and also today, to pack/clean up stuffs. So going to study for my As there next year (y)

4. Mom and Dad went for sunset gospel camp, so it's home alone for me. And my sister. For dinner, I cooked creamy chicken pasta and it was a success! I'm really glad that each time I cook/bake for the first time, it tastes nice :) I searched for recipes but in the end, cooked on my own because I wanted mine healthier and tastier (IMO). Anyway, sis said it tasted delicious and of course, there is room for improvement. Hence, when mom comes back from camp, I'm gonna cook again for her. Just collated a whole new set of recipes for baked rice and pasta. Can't wait to try! Oh by the way, I love the comments and 'likes' at Facebook when I posted this picture! Yay I'm motivated to cook more \m/

Shall continue with the other skits for mersing trip now and do harp's to-do list!

Hope you and I will have a productive and efficient day ahead :)

 
 
 
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: Jar Of Hearts - Christina Perri
 
 
Shuning
28 November 2011 @ 06:45 pm
I went out with sis on 25th Nov, for our first manicure before her birthday cause we wanted pretty nails for special occasion :)

We went to get her black heels first, because the one I bought for her 2 years ago just spoilt. Went to Anna Nucci where she found her heels and went hunting for the most worth-it manicure.


(This isn't my hands duh, hahaha we didn't take any photos during the manicure, just talked about random things ;))


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Current Music: Gotta Get The Girl - Dreamstreet